HUGE congrats!!!

December 17, 2007 at 7:09 pm | Posted in dreams, News, sisters | 6 Comments

My sister Carrie finished nursing school today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  We are prouder than proud parents because she worked extremely hard for this nursing degree and she is going to make the best nurse, aside from Laura Margaret, ever.  Congrats sister!!

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Traveling to the red barn

May 1, 2007 at 9:18 pm | Posted in dreams, Employment, Photographs | 5 Comments

Ah, the new job. It’s fine, really. My bosses are elderly and I am working at a pool, spa, and fencing company. I think I had this same job when I was sixteen, except I am making a whole lot more money. I am not allowed to swim at work, although there are pools there. I don’t plan on working there long, but it is starting to grow on me. I’m not being sexually harassed and my boss has yet to hit me on the back. I enjoy the chemistry aspect of getting to test water samples. Hooray for silly temp jobs!

I took Sean to see my old stomping grounds tonight. We drove to the little red barn where I spent most of my college years landscaping the university.

I love that red barn as if it were a member of my family. I love it for the memories and the hardships, I love how the paint is chipping and the fence out front has been half torn down by having been hit one too many times with the trucks. I love the people who work there and although they were long gone by the time we arrived tonight, I could feel them sitting next to me on the picnic bench.

There is something sacred about that barn. Something that makes my heart sink a little knowing that I can no longer spend all of my waking moments there.

I like my new job. I do. It is simple–like Landscape. But I know that as I continue my job search I will never find a home again. That red barn was my home.

When heaven calls

April 17, 2007 at 3:46 pm | Posted in dreams, family, Sean | 10 Comments

My grandmother called me last night in my dreams. Although she passed away back in 2005, she frequently still visits me while I’m asleep. I awake from these dreams surrounded by an overwhelming sense of peace. My grandmother has been my guardian angel ever since I was a little girl. She has always been by my side and remained with me even after she lost her battle with cancer.

So last night she called me.  I asked her how things were going in Heaven and she told me that she was having fun and was happy to be back with my grandfather, but she missed her family. She misses her sisters and brothers, her daughters, her grandchildren, her sons. “That’s okay Gram,” I said, “You know you can always visit when you get lonely.”

After we talked for a few minutes, my grandmother told me that she had a message for me. Actually, this message was for Sean.

“Sean’s mom is here with me” my grandmother said, “and she is lovely. So beautiful. She wants me to have you tell Sean that she is sorry that she missed out on his games and that she loves him.”

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When I saw Sean for lunch, I told him the message and asked him if it made sense.

He smiled a little and told me that since his mother had gotten really sick with cancer, she had missed out on most of his hockey games from when he was about fourteen years old.

I’d like to believe that my grandmother is taking care of Sean’s mom and vice versa. Somehow the idea that she visits me makes that loss of death a little easier, because she stays in my heart. And it makes me feel great that our families are getting to know each other, even in Heaven.

Do you dream of your angels?

A very important post

March 20, 2007 at 7:11 pm | Posted in dreams, family, Love | 12 Comments

My grandmother visited me in my dreams last night. She does this once in a while and I tend to view it as a welcoming sign that she is still looking over me, nearly two years after she passed away.

The dream was of a summer picnic at her house and although my father was in attendance with his wife, they chose to distance themselves and sat at a picnic table far away from the rest of our family. It all seemed very fitting at this point in my life where I am finally a part of my extended family again after years of being the black sheep and my father is fighting with everyone he has ever loved. It seems the tables have turned.

There were babies at this picnic and I rocked a little girl in my arms throughout the dream. My grandmother hugged me tight just before I woke up and told me that I would make an incredible mother someday. And then she looked at me with this all-knowing glow about her and I knew that she has been watching over us. She’s seen the rivalries that are popping up between our once close-knit family and she knows who is at fault. And yet she gleamed pure love from her sweet southern heart, just as she did while she was alive.

I guess my point is this: she will always be my angel and I have to know in my heart that when she comes to me in my dreams and tells me that she is proud of who I am, I must be doing something right. My unemployed, fish-loving, happy-in-Love self is actually still making my gram proud.

And that is worth more than all of the money in the world.

Here’s a treat for you all. It is a clip of my gram singing one of her favorite southern songs:

And you wondered where I got my character from.

And for those of you who are interested in learning more about her life, I’ll let her tell her life story:

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We didn’t win.

March 18, 2007 at 9:28 pm | Posted in dreams | 5 Comments

HGTV has been holding a dream home giveaway contest for the past few months and tonight the winner of this fabulous 2.5 million dollar house in Colorado was announced; it wasn’t us.

I’m not sure why we had our hopes up at all. Sean and I both entered via email each day for about two months, we sent a postcard entry and I photoshopped a photo of the two of us standing in front of the dream home for the cover. We put a lot of wishing into this contest and tonight our hopes were dashed.

We should be happy for the guy who won, he seemed very thrilled. But while we were home all day waiting for the contest winner to be announced, crossing our fingers and looking out the window all night on the rare chance that the satellite truck with host and camera in tow was parked outside, the guy was out eating dinner at a local joint. He didn’t even watch the special! Rub it in buddy, feel free to reach in our chests to steal our hearts.

We went outside after the show and stood on a giant snow pile and laughed our silent heartbreak away:

“It’s probably good that we didn’t win” I said, “I might’ve shit myself from all of the excitement”

“They must have something written in the clause about that” Sean answered, “Quote: If you shit your pants when we show up at your door, you get nothing.”

I’m almost glad we didn’t win. Rich people are too busy worrying about taxes and bills to have any fun. And millionaires can’t say the word ‘shit’.

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